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the kindest devil, pt. 2 - simon riley x fem!reader
This is your dead dove: do not eat warning. This second part deals with incredibly hard, graphic topics. tw: murder, familial violence, fauxcest, gore, smut, implied sexual abuse from an authority figure, and just general dark themes. it is also worth noting that both Simon and reader are aged down (18 year olds in their last year of high school) please do not read if this will be harmful to your mental health. that is more important to me than anything else.
listen, the brain worms took over. this was supposed to be a quick little one-shot drabble but the brainworms demanded a sacrifice and it devolved into this. but seriously, do not read if dark themes are triggering to you or if you are not in the right headspace. unbeta'd, bc we die like phil real men. thanks for reading!
pt. 1 here
word count: 2149 masterlist ao3 link
The bullet was earth-shatteringly loud as it ricocheted off the wall and grazed Simon’s thigh. His yell of pain, of rage, that sounded in your ear felt like a nuclear bomb going off. As Simon rolled off of you, you sat up on your elbows, feeling dazed and confused. That’s when your gaze fell on Phil. His cheeks were ruddy and swollen, his eyes were unfocused, hazed over with alcohol. But, in his shaking hand, was a gun. Simon was standing in front of Phill now, his hand clutching at his thigh. You glanced down at the wound and watched as thick arterial blood poured out of Simon’s thigh, painting the light blue jeans he was wearing with the sticky redness. Simon’s breath came out in ragged puffs, his eyes narrowed and filled with rage - he looked like a bull, and Phil was waving the red flag.
“You two have always been fuckin’ disgusting. That’s why I started fuckin’ her, you know that, right? I started fucking her because I wanted her to grow up and be normal, not craving her brother's cock,” Phil spat out, glaring between you and Simon. Quickly, you glanced away, feeling nauseous at Phil’s words as heat coated your cheeks, the blush matching the blood blooming down Simon’s jeans. It didn’t matter how untrue you knew the words were, that you and Simon weren’t truly siblings, it didn’t matter in Phil’s eyes. In the eyes of society.
Before you could blink, let alone formulate a response, Simon was lunging at him. He knocked Phil to the ground, the mass of the two men hitting the ground enough to make the ground shake. Simon looked absolutely vicious as he started throwing punches. His eyes gleamed with a murderous rage that you had never seen before. It didn’t take long for the crack of a broken nose to sound through the room, blood pouring down Phil’s face. Phil’s reaction time was slowed from the alcohol flowing through his head, but you watched as he raised the butt of the gun, the matte black back strap of the gun catching in the light as he attempted to crack it down on Simon’s skull. Simon, with his ever-keen senses, felt the movement, and quickly knocked the gun out of Phil’s hands.
“Don’t you ever fuckin’ talk about her like that again! She never deserved what you did to her, and, for the record, neither did I!” Simon raged as his hands shoved at Phil’s chest. Tears were streaming down Simon’s face, droplets of grief mixed with rage to form a dizzying concoction of conflicting emotions, mixing with blood that had gotten smeared there. Who knew whose blood it was at this point.
But Simon’s words were little more than background static to you as you watched the gun spin to a halt in front of you. You could save Simon and yourself from the abuse - you could set the both of you free.
It took less than a second to make your decision.
You jumped off of the bed, but at this point neither of the men were paying attention to you. With shaking hands, you picked up the gun. You didn’t even say anything. You aimed the way that you had been taught, and you squeezed the trigger. As soon as the trigger was pulled, you looked away, squeezing your eyes shut as you felt the viscera of what was once Phil’s skull land on your skin.
What felt like hours passed, but logically, you knew it couldn’t have been more than seconds. Simon’s hands were still coated in gore as his hands grabbed onto yours, removing the gun gingerly from your shaking grasp. He dropped the gun on the ground and kicked it away before his hands came back up to your cheeks, forcing your gaze to meet his warm brown one.
All you could think about was the pieces of skull, brain matter, and blood coating his fingers as he touched you.
“I- I had to,” you whispered, your voice shaking as your eyes darted wildly between his, almost as if you were seeking forgiveness from a god.
“I know,” he replied simply, his fingers digging into your cheeks ever so slightly, desperately trying to keep you grounded. You were in shock, your body trembling under Simon’s touch. Your eyes were darting desperately between his. You felt untethered, your body going hot and cold and hot and cold and hot and cold in a nauseating cycle.
Simon sighed softly as he watched you start to disassociate. His hands slipped down from your cheeks, down your shoulders, your arms, until finally they came to rest on your hips, leaving streaky trails of blood and brain matter all over your body. He hauled you against him so that no space was left between you, and did the only thing that he could think of to keep you from going off the deep end, from completely getting lost in what you just did.
His lips met yours in a fury. It was all teeth and tongue, Simon licking desperately into your mouth in a vain attempt to distract you. When you didn’t melt into him like you normally did, a short growl left his throat as his hands dipped beneath his sweatshirt that covered your body, his blunt nails digging into the flesh covering your soft hips as he continued to kiss you.
“Baby, c’mon. Focus on me, love. Just on me,” he muttered between kisses, desperation coating his tone. It wasn’t until he bit your lip, your own blood bursting into your mouth as he bit just a little too hard that you gasped, your shaking arms coming up to wrap around his neck. Simon grins a little sadistically against your lips. “‘Atta girl, there’s my pretty angel, huh?”
You whimpered out an affirmative as Simon picked up and pressed you into the wall, the plaster sticky and bumpy from the gorey spray of the bulletwound. But, with Simon’s hands dipping beneath the waistband of your leggings as he pressed you into it, it was hard to focus on anything but the skipping drag of his bloodied fingers as they skated across your smooth skin.
He was still kissing you, as if his lips alone could absolve you of all of the sin you had just committed. His fingers dipped lower, lower, lower until the rough pad of his thumb swept over the tight bundle of nerves at the apex of your sex. Your back arched off the wall, the sweatshirt making a noise similar to tape ripping off of paper as it pulled against the quickly-drying scarlet and pink decorating the plaster. Simon smirked, bringing his face down to mouth at your neck. “That’s it, baby. I’ve got you. You’re okay. Just focus on me,” he whispered between kisses and bites.
Your nails dug into his shoulders, your head coming back to rest against the wall as his hands continued their warpath of distraction across your body. His thumb refused to let up against your clit, and between the adrenaline, the kisses on your neck, the whispered words of praise, and the perfect pressure against your sensitive bud, it wasn’t long before you were tumbling over the edge. You pushed at Simon weakly, trying to move him off of you as tears started to form in the corner of your eyes, but Simon shook his head. “No, no, love. You’re okay. No tears, no tears. Keep your eyes on me, pretty girl, and tell me what you need, yeah?” Simon mutters, bringing his hand up to your cheek and wiping a tear away, smearing bloody gore mixed with your fluid across your cheek.
Your mind was reeling, but Simon kept your focus entirely on him. Your entire existence boiled down to this exact moment, with Simon in front of you, your cunt still spasming from his ministrations, and all you could reply with was: “you. I need- I need you. Please, please, Si. Let me have you.”
So, Simon did. With a devilish smirk, he pressed one knee against your core and kept one hand on your hip to keep you pinned in place, as his other hand tugged at his belt and the fly of his jeans. You heard the clink of the metal as he pulled his belt apart, the sharp grinding noise of his fly being opened quickly following it before he was pushing his boxers down just enough to free his cock. Then, his hands were quickly tugging down the waistband of your panties and leggings, pulling them down just enough to allow your cunt to meet the cool air.
You glanced down at him as he ran his own hand up and down his own length a few times. You watched as the unholy combination of blood, viscera, and your own slick mixed together around the head of his cock as he continued to jack himself off. Something was wrong with you. Something had to be wrong with you, because no normal or sane human being would have heat curling in their stomach at this sight. But you did.
You didn’t have long to think about the implications of this though, as Simon glanced up at you, that signature cocky smirk plastered on his plush lips as he leaned his hips forward, the head of his cock nudging against your clit. “So. Fuckin’. Perfect for me, angel. Such a good girl for me. Such a perfect cunt,” Simon praised as he ran the head of his cock up and down your slit a few times. This was one of his favorite parts about fucking you - watching your face contort as he teased you, the way the wanton moans fell obscenely and unabashedly from your lips.
Without warning, he pushed into your entrance, the head of his cock pressing against your pulsating walls. You were tight, the adrenaline ensuring that Simon would have to work to fuck you properly. He groaned and leaned his forehead onto your shoulder as your nails scratched down his back. You were babbling nonsense from above him, and he lifted his head slightly to seal his lips over yours. “Shhh, baby, shhh,” he crooned against your lips. “It’s okay, I got you. Relax for me, love. Go ahead, use those pretty little fingers to circle that perfect clit for me, huh? Help me fuck you, baby.”
It was all you could do to obey. Your fingers skated down the blood and gore that covered your body from the wall and Simon’s touch until they reached your aching clit, and you did exactly as he asked. You moaned, the sound an obscene warmth that settled right over Simon’s ego, and he grinned against your lips. “There you go, angel. That’s it. Let me in that perfect fuckin’ pussy, huh?”
Simon quickly shifted your hips against the wall, pulling them further towards him for a better angle, and loud groan punched past his lips as he finally bottomed out.
But it wasn’t enough for you. Not right now, not after all of this. You didn’t have time for soft, for slow, for gentle. You needed Simon to make you forget.
“Simon,” you gasped out. “I need- I need you to move. Please, please, please, fuck me, baby, fuck me. Make me yours.”
A small gasp of surprise left Simon, but what was he supposed to do, deny you? So, he just nodded, and set a punishing pace, his heavy balls slapping your ass repeatedly, the force of his thrusts pushing you further up the wall.
“This what you needed, love? To get so fuckin’ cockdrunk off of me that you can forget everything, hmmm? I got you, angel, I’ll make you forget,” he growls out against the skin of your throat, his teeth catching on the delicate flesh.
It doesn’t take long before you are tumbling over the edge again, your fingers and his cock making you see stars for the briefest of moments before the adrenaline and taboo pleasure of falling apart on Simon’s cock caused you to fully black out, your twitching cunt still spread open over Simon’s cock.
You came to a few minutes (seconds? hours? days?) later, wrapped up in Simon’s arms. You blinked in confusion, not understanding why there was so much wetness all around you. It wasn’t until you felt Simon’s hands in your hair, massaging floral-scented bubbles into the strands that you realized what was happening. He had brought you into the shower to clean you off. You couldn’t bring yourself to look down at the drain, to watch the deep red of Phil and Simon’s blood circle the drain.
As Simon noticed that you had fully came to, he leaned down and pressed a kiss to your forehead with a muttered promise. I’m gonna take you far away from here.
#the kindest devil#starlit-witer#simon riley x reader#simon riley x reader au#simon ghost riley x reader#dead dove do not eat#dead dove fic#please check tw i beg#tw: implied sa#tw: gore#tw: fauxcest#tw: violence#tw: blood#tw: death#tw: implied abuse#tw: violent death#tw: guns#simon riley fanfic#cod fanfic#ghost cod
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Heart of Stone just destroyed me on a molecular level.
Odo's story about his name almost made me cry. His name meant nothing until he met her. And then when she orders him to leave, he confesses his love for her?!
And he's so absolutely destroyed, because she's going to die, and he'll die with her.
Then she says she loves him too.
And thats when he knows that none of this is real? That its a trick?
Because he knows beyond a shadow of a doubt she doesn't love him back.
I'm actually going to go die now.
#also#the b plot with nog also made me tear up#bc that was incredible and emotional and real#nog will do awsome in starfleet#season 3 man#odo#odo x kira#kira nerys#star trek deep space nine#ds9#star trek ds9#nog ds9
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Cannot accurately describe to you how much I love his lil cat face here. This man is filled with sillies
#naruto#iruka umino#his incredible range of emotion compels me#there's no real wrong or right way to do iruka fic bc he rlly does just fit every genre lmaooooo
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also with us all calling this the healing tour and that this tour has encapsulated the spirit of believers never die and fob forever i will also say. it so much encapsulates the spirit of fall out boy is for lovers. they made so much (for) stardust with warmth and love and then toured with so much warmth and love, each show was made to be special and unlike any other, they played each song with so much love for us and healed over their own scars by debuting songs we never thought they'd play, by tenderly bringing old songs out and giving them their moment to shine, with nothing but love. fall out boy has nothing but love for us, for each other we have nothing but love for them, and now they have nothing but love for the parts of their discography that they had before only ever shunned. because fall out boy at it's heart is for lovers <3
#SO sorry to wax poetic and make so many posts like this its just that. i am feeling the fob emotion incredibly strongly and i just#god. they love us we love them and its beautiful. most pure fan/artist relationship ever bc its genuine and real#and this tour showed that love more than anything theyve ever done!!!!#txt#p: 100
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it was once observed by a dear friend that the hours in which i am most alert are like 7pm to 2am which probably explains a lot about how my posts get worse throughout the evening. but also sometimes i look at today where i was just sort of gnawing the couch all day until about 5pm when i wrote an entire fic in two hours and then another entire post about kaapo which to be clear took another two hours bc i had to chase links and explain my passions in a kind way and this was in addition to a church meeting. i would excel as the person who lights and then extinguishes lamps in the night
#this morning my therapist was like your eyes are red what's going on#and i said bro i am not on drugs. it is cold and dry in my apartment and i was standing in front of a sad lamp#and they said ah. a sun lamp. i see#YES. BC I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON AND I AM BEING PUNISHED BY CAPITALISM TO GO TO THERAPY AT 10 IN THE MORNING#INSTEAD OF 6PM WHEN I WOULD BE ABLE TO HOLD A CONVERSATION BETTER#i think they think i am abusing substances. human the reason i am the way i am bc i am not abusing substances#i am rawdogging reality in almost every way and i HATE it. i am experiencing a full of range of emotions in real life!!#one good thing about today i must say. i looked in the mirror and went oh wow my california hair stylist did a good job!#my california hair stylist was good at cutting my hair in that she was filipina and understood how to cut filipino hair#she was not good at cutting my hair in that she would get too deep in explaining warriors drama and get distracted while cutting my hair#and up doing something absolutely wacko that made me look like a pepe frog guy bc she was too amped up about klay and steph#and then i'd be stuck with fucking alt right hair for a good three weeks and my only saving grace is how i look ambiguously ethnic#BUT when i saw her last i was like i need you to give me a haircut where if i can't get my hair cut for four months i don't#look stupid as hell. and she said oh yeah i can do that. and gave me a blow by blow of klay and steph's divorce while cutting my hair#and i was fearing for my life. but now that it has grown out pretty significantly i will say she did a very good job of cutting it#unlike every other time i grew out my hair in a big way and it looked incredibly stupid for several months until it evened out#but she cut it so it looks like my hair is on purpose. which i appreciate!#now i have more time to decide if i want to avenge bo bichette and grow out my hair again#without feeling stressed about looking incredible stupid and unkempt#thank you nicole...a true ally...i will never forget how much you hate kevin durant even though you stressed me out so bad...#and you may be wondering why if she gave me that many bad hair cuts why i'd keep going to her#and the answer is: bc i only want my warriors and 49ers news to be reported by an energetic filipina lesbian holding razor on my neck#and unfortunately the local newspaper beats just can't replicate that experience#fresno oilers.txt
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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"
#bakuspeech#number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u#he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up#(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment#and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here#but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something#but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku#but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this#this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and#that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing#but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it#its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with#and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually#I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay#but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol#not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real#and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself#and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god#that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao#but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them#have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway
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ZACH OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT DO YOU MEAN I MISSED YOUR BIRTHDAY?!!! IM SO SORRY OFERJGFERN IM SO MAD IM ONLY FINDING OUT NOW.
IM SENDING YOU ALL THE GODDAMN AMAZING VIBES AND HUGS AND BEST TIMES EVER IN THE WORLD. TY FOR BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL LIGHT IN THIS COMMUNITY AND ABSOLUTELY FEEDING US WITH YOUR ENDLESS RICH CREATIVITY AND BEAUTIFUL MIND!!! YOUR PASSION, ART, AND REFLECTIONS NEVER CEASE TO AMAZE ME AND FILL ME WITH SM HAPPY STIMS LIKE- AGH!!!!
IM GONNA STOP YELLING NOW BUT ILYSM /P AND HOPE ONLY THE BESTEST THINGS EVER HAPPEN FOR YOU AND AND YOUR THE BEST AND AHHHHHHHHH QAQ <33 <33 <3333333
NO WORDS. ONLY CRY.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH TRIONAAAAAA#IM BAWLING MY EYES OUT#LOOK!!!!! AT MY BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL BOYYYYYS!!!!#YALL ARE FREAKING SPOILING ME SM RN#ALSO#LIGHT IN THIS COMMUNITY UM BITCH HAVE U LOOKED IN A MIRROR?..#????#DONT BC YOULL BLIND URSELF U ABSOLUTE BEACON OF GOODNESS HOW DARE U#ADFJBKKJHSDFJKHSFDKHJ#fandom friends#rat sons fanart#ask reply#THANK YOU THOUGH SERIOUSLY THAT MEANS SO MUCH AND MAKES ME GENUINELY SO EMOTIONAL#legitimately i am so so so glad and touched to be a part of this little corner of the internet#and to have met so many of you amazing incredible wonderful people <3#i for real love you all so very much /p#SOMEDAY IMMA STEAL U AND ARCHIE AND THE REST OF THE MOOTS AND WE'LL ALL HANG OUT TOGETHER#ILL BUY U GUYS SNACKS OR SMTHN#CUT FRUIT OR PLAY CATCH#IDK!!!!!#OLD MAN FORMS OF AFFECTION#AS I AM NOW OFFICIALLY ANCIENT#ALSO APOLOGIES THAT IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO RESPOND LIFES BEEN KICKING MY ASS A BIT THIS WEEK#got a second job so my time to draw and be online is even less than before :((((#but!!! im hoping i can eventually slowly shift from my old retail job to just this new one which should improve things!! :D#THANK YOU AGAIN TRIONA!!! LOVE U SM /p AND SENDING U THE MOST AMAZING WONDERFUL VIBES FOREVER#KICK ASS OUT THERE!!!! 💪💪💪
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accurate representation of the tenth doctor’s emotional arc over his seasons
#nine claws his way out of hell and ten is born out of a renewed love for life . we’re bacj#*back#he loses rose . emotional cliff dive. it’s so over .#is in the trenches for ages . sorta begins to claw his way up again bc martha is a (if small) rock for him to cling onto . by the end of her#run he’s operating on average ‘depressed person coping with it’ levels . stabilisation .#donna shows up . they have ups and downs but by god are they so good for each other . WE’RE SO BACK#he has to erase her memory and send her home otherwise she’ll die . it’s over#mixed state is whatever the hell mental health episode he was going through during the specials#end of time happens . he fucking dies in horribly depressive circumstances . it’s over (real)#incredible meta analysis from me wowowowowow#jay rambles
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rick keeps a pic of morty in his wallet :(
#it makes me so incredibly emotional#bc i think that there is no certainty that anyone is 'real' in rick's life (at least from his pov)#his family from his original dimension is all dead#morty is the only one he's been with from the beginning#unless i'm forgetting some lore idk#and summer is starting to join#but i feel like it's to a smaller degree#AAAA#s7 was soooo good#the last episode makes meoifjewoifjeoiw#rick and morty#rick and morty season 7#rick and morty spoilers#q
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What do you MEAN Isa TKM is gonna be the villain of the Superman movie WHY DID NO ONE TELL ME THIS?????? IM GOING TO SEE HER IN THE BIG SCREEN???? THE 10 YEAR OLD KID WHO LIVES IN ME IS SO FREAKING HAPPY😭😭😭😭😭😭
#💙! mah rambles#I LOVE HER SM#ok technically I don't bc idk her I don't even know her real name#BUT#i love the character that she did she literally marked my life#yes i meant life not childhood#as silly as it sounds Isa has been with me ever since i was 10 or so#i never stopped watching her show😭 even with 22 years old im still watching isa tkm#and it's incredible bc she also is like a huge example as to who i am as a person#bc her character had flaws yes but she has always been kind and noble#im literally so emotional over this#im going to watch superman and literally cry the moment she shows up on the screen
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anyway i'm officially at the point where i'm on the floor crying over how a lot of these 'call my muse by their full name' prompts have been like "yeong-hwan? that's weird. you're obviously byan."
#it makes byan so!!!!!! ugh!!!!! it's one of those moments where they realize they've put their trust in the right people#and it makes them a lot more emotional than they'll let on (in turn making ME v emotional)#they don't have a TON of moments where they really like. struggle in terms of their gender.#they stopped letting other peoples' opinions of them get to them too badly a long time ago#(or they like. take it out on those people with violence)#but when it comes to the people who DO matter to them........ and when it comes to their name... they do have concerns#they do get nervous. they DO get uncomfortable.#they've had people who seem supportive turn their backs on them before. ones who turned out to not take them seriously before.#they're kind of terrified of that happening again in these relationships they've let themself lean in to.#so having the people who matter to them most brush off their 'real' name in favour of byan is honestly so big for them#especially bc like. they're clearly very open about not abiding by gender binary but it's not smth they really TALK about with people so#it's HUGE to have people just accept that without any real explanation on their end?#it's incredibly validating. it makes them feel v accepted and that's not a feeling they get a lot so it's. yeah. it's Important#and it honestly earns that person some bonus trust points too tbh#i'm losing my train of thought but just know that i love these and that they're super significant to byan ok ty#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.
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just took so much psychic damage listening to the live performance of fast car
#it was incredible dont get me wrong#but i had completely forgotten how much i listened to that song from june-november of this last year#i think it was second on my most listened playlist#and i'm now faced with the unfortunate truth that it now brings back a lot of really tough things#the first note hit and i was like. fuck. i was listening to this song when so so many pieces of my life imploded#almost started weeping#had the same experience a couple days ago when fucking. people like us started playing at a family dinner#i was INSTANTLY shot back to looping that song just trying to force myself through the day a couple months ago#fast car is a different experience tho bc i just happened to be listening to it when some real bullshit went down in my life#so now i'm like fuck dude i love this song and i /wasnt/ using it as an emotional crutch but now it reminds me of [redacted]#ALSO#fuck my ENTIRE life but carry on my wayward son is now one of these things for me too#list of things i have in common with the winchesters: carry on wayward son was playing as my brother died#(i know that it wasnt diegetic in spn but fuck man)#vent#lea speaks
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what the fuck i didn’t expect to cry just now. it’s so amazing how you can connect to people you’ll never meet.
#yo it's d :)#💙♾️#rant incoming ->#okay so if i’m being honest being a black fan in mana/mdm/mm spaces is actually kinda isolating sometimes if i’m being honest bc a lot of#western fans are white people. that’s just the truth. and like i’ve been sorta subtly ‘bullied’ (lightheartedly) for years over my interests#misaligning with what is typically ascribed to black people. i know it’s silly to let it get to me but after a while that shit wears you out#that being said. i was watching the mdm 2007 paris show bc i wanted to see a specific song real quick. the video pans over the crowd and obv#it’s white people as far as the eye can see. shocker. however. then it gets a bit closer to the stage. not too close. but sorta. right there#is a black fan. they stand out a bit. besides their skin being brown their hair is also in cornrows! a protective style!! at an mdm show!!!#seeing them in the crowd caused me to be overcome w/ emotion. i felt so instantly connected to this person across time and space from a two#second clip of them. and of course i shouldn’t cry about it but knowing that hey. i’m not alone out here and that we’ve probably had similar#experiences is so……? it was so easy to suddenly put myself in their position. a person that looks like me in a room full of people who don’t#god.#i hope they’re doing well nowadays and that they still rock out to mdm. i hope the feel incredibly valid in their blackness.#HOLY SHIT WE BELONG IN THE SCENE !!!!! WE BELONG !!!!!#I BELONG !!!!!!!!!!!#dev rants
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finally played butterfly soup 2 btw. Ough
#i love those silly baseball players so fucking much. they are everything to me#min-seo and diya being soooo incredibly gross and coupley is. very cute. theyre so real#and i will never stop being obsessed with the noelle/akarsha dynamic#and the EPILOGUE. AUGH.#they love each other.........#i am lucky to be the Exact Target Audience for this game#(gaysians who have spent a significant portion of their life in the bay area)#brianna lei Gets It in a way that few people do#yellings#i did think 'yeah no high schooler is emotionally intelligent enough to be able to pinpoint this about their emotional state'#but like.... i am willing to let a lot slide bc the rest of it is so charming#and very Real. To Me.
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I made another silly bug boy <3
Orchid Mantis Cookie lives in and rules a kingdom found inside of a large, hollow tree. The Mantis Kingdom is not very welcoming to new people. They are barely welcoming to each other. Despite this, they live in mild harmony under the guide of Orchid Mantis.
Orchid mantises are rare, and their mantis forms help protect the kingdom by using their flower mimicry as defense and food collection. This, along with the fact that he is as big as a female mantis, is why he is the ruler.
Mimi-Cry is a lump of clay that... well, it hates itself. It molds itself to mimic other things but can never keep the form up for long. Mimic-Cry feels attracted to Orchid Mantis because of this, since they both pretend to be things they are not. Mimi-Cry's favorite thing to mimic is flowers, like Orchid Mantis.
At first, Orchid did not like Mimic-Cry, but eventually, as it kept changing into different things to get him to love it back, he grew very fond and protective of the sentient clay lump. Mimic-Cry is now not allowed to leave his side, out of fear it could get hurt.
Relationship Chart:
Gingerbrave(friendly): Thanks for helping... I guess.
Licorice Cookie(tension): Ugh, so annoying...
Kiwi Cookie(tension): What do you think you're doing?!
Werewolf Cookie(friendly): You're alright, I suppose.
Pecan Candy Cookie(trust): You. I like you.
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Gingerbrave(trust): A little mean, but, you're alright!
Licorice Cookie(tension): Never met someone so rude..!
Kiwi Cookie(tension): Sorry, it was an accident!
Pecan Candy Cookie(trust): Wow, royalty. How exciting!
#cookie run#cookie run oc#orchid mantis cookie#pecan candy cookie#bug boyfriends are so real#orchid is a bit rude to people if he thinks theyre wasting his time#he is also incredibly defensive#thats why him and kiwi have tension#kiwi ran into the kingdoms tree and orchid got SUUUUPER defensive abt it#it was a genuine accident but orchid wouldnt listen lolz#sometimes he feels alone while ruling the kingdom bc mantises usually prefer to be left alone so his subjects leave him in solitude a lot#because they assume thats what he wants. he gets bummed about it a lot#he actually enjoys discourse in his kingdom bc it gives him an excuse to step in and be around people for a while#mimi-cry keeps him company most days but it cant really talk so it doesnt help a whole lot#'why doesnt he just tell them' they avoid him a lot bc of.. yknow solitude and he doesnt want to make them feel stupid for assuming#something that was totally wrong so he just kinda. lives with it. hes a good king and cares about even the small things about all of his#subjects. like how they feel and how they perceive themselves and others and such. he keeps a lot of his emotions hidden for this reason
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obsessed w looking at the old discord gc that everyone else left so its jsut me (+their old acct that got deleted) that i shared with my old best friend and since it became just me i used to send so many messages about how i felt abt her that were. mostly sad and angry and stuff etc but a lot of them are also like "well guess who has friends so much fucking better than you now loser >:>" and also a lot of song lyrics.
#“sokka is a MUCHH better character that weres blue and represses their emotions SO TAKE THAT LOSER” real quote. also real quote in the sens#its very real. sorry patton iluu still i prommy<//3 but sokka the loml sokka !!!!! <3#idk why im thinking abt her tbh . actualy ik why i put on the new masie peters song and was kinda like omg#bc it is like. yes its kinda sad to still think abt her (which tbf i dont that much anymore) but i mean like !!#instead of her who just genrelly didnt appriciate or care abt me the same that i did for her i now have so many incredible freinds who#are so much better to me and actually care abt me back when i care abt them andd im still a v much like. not to brag but a v caring kind#friend imo or at least i try to be lol and now instead of her the people that get to have that in their lives are also the same to me and#make me so much happier than she ever did and actually remember my bday and oh shit ! i won the breakup !!#flappy rambles
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